TRT Withdrawals
Posted by razz05
I can’t get onto the TRT board 
I’m having withdrawals. I go to the login screen and it says processing then boots me right back to the login again. I’ve tried clearing cookies/history etc. WAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Sleep? What’s that?
Posted by razz05
It’s 3am… and yes I’m still awake. This has been my life the past 2 weeks or so… 1-4 hours of sleep a night. It’s not pretty right now… I feel like a F***ing zombie. I guess I have more issues than I thought I had.
A little better
Posted by razz05
Things are a little better. I spoke w/ the recommended therapist, and she doesn’t have any new openings for kids… so she sent me a few other names. Now to just put the puzzle pieces together. We go to our first Mediator session on Thursday… it ought to be fun (not).
K has taken the cat back to the house because she won’t stop going to the bathroom on the floors here. When loser E lived here he let 2 pit bulls defecate all over the house… and I guess our cleaning didn’t get up enough of the smell because she’s marking her territory by going on the floors. I hope he can keep her cuz the kids would be disappointed if he had to get rid of her.
I gotta leave for soccer practice… I’m completely exhausted… mentally and physically. I hope the kids let me sleep in tomorrow morning… that’d be nice.
ALONE
Posted by razz05
MAN… I was doing SO well until now. My kids are with K this entire weekend (because I’m working evenings). I feel so lonely… noone is around, and I have nothing to occupy my mind.
I’m definitely calling the therapist for the kids tomorrow. L had a small breakdown on the soccer field yesterday when someone accidently pushed her down. She told me her feelings were hurt. She had tears in her eyes quite a few times during the game because I was trying to tell her where she needed to be (just as I was telling all of the rest of the kids on the field). It just makes me sad to think what is going on in her brain right now. She has also been playing ALONE at recess at her new school. She knows a few girls in her class (from friends/sports etc), so that’s not the problem). I did talk to her last evening and she sounded SO peppy and happy. I just hope we have very FEW of the cruddy times and lots of the happy ones.